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Mar. 9th, 2005 02:14 amI found a woman's archive who posts a work of poetry she likes each week. A lot of them are wonderful.
This is a fairly stressful time to live in my head, school-wise. I wonder if periods of feeling this much like I wish that it were no longer now, and that these obligations were already discharged, are a necessary consequence of my finally doing something with momentum? It's not very pleasant.
I've noticed that this essay, unlike others, is probably not one I would be doing if it weren't mandatory; not because Canadian Politics is a less interesting class than my others, but because I feel much less certain of (and comfortable with) my opinions around it. Because of this... How to say it? I feel like it's all right if I don't do it very well - if it is servicable, but not inspired. It's a tool; not so much for self-expression, but to satisfy my agreement with the class, and facilitate my continuing with the rest of it in good faith.
I think, though, that getting it to merely adequate is going to be difficult enough.
This is a fairly stressful time to live in my head, school-wise. I wonder if periods of feeling this much like I wish that it were no longer now, and that these obligations were already discharged, are a necessary consequence of my finally doing something with momentum? It's not very pleasant.
I've noticed that this essay, unlike others, is probably not one I would be doing if it weren't mandatory; not because Canadian Politics is a less interesting class than my others, but because I feel much less certain of (and comfortable with) my opinions around it. Because of this... How to say it? I feel like it's all right if I don't do it very well - if it is servicable, but not inspired. It's a tool; not so much for self-expression, but to satisfy my agreement with the class, and facilitate my continuing with the rest of it in good faith.
I think, though, that getting it to merely adequate is going to be difficult enough.
